Sunday, September 27, 2009

A great QUOTE about HOPE!

A friend of mine, Ajie, he once told me a great quote from the movie The Shawshank Redemption. Simple but meaningful!
To let us dare to never give up HOPE - as a light in the dark-


Andy Dufresne (The Shawshank Redemption)

Friday, September 25, 2009

Crazy Kinda Crush on Him! (there's no such empty hope right?)

I once asked God to let me feel butterflies on my stomach again.

I miss those butterflies on my stomach! I have been 'enjoying' my campus-life too much that sometimes I just forgot how it feels to fall for someone.

I asked Him to remind me to know how it feels when you like someone.

God is kind enough for He makes me feel this kind of feeling again: when you feel your heart beats so fast just to hear his name, when feel nervous just to say “Hi!” if you happen to meet him by accident, when you feel insecure how you look if he sees you, when you just want to have more and more conversation with him via Yahoo Messenger, when you regularly check his Facebook just to make sure if he is still available, when you feel your heart beat faster to see his beautiful eyes, when you insanely search excuses to exchange your phone numbers with his, when you are on the bleachers loyally watching him plays sport, and when you want to fold him into pieces and put him in your pocket just so he won’t go anywhere but near you.

Stupid isn’t it?

It is.

Now it all leads to a question: Am I obsessed, infatuated or delirious?

I sing all the crush-songs all the way, but I wonder if he would feel what I feel too. So cliché, but it does happen to me.

Should I be thankful for God has let me feel this so-called-crush feeling or Should I blame God for giving me this feeling that cause me hard to focus, because every time I daydream, it’s him that I think about?!

I wonder whether the Law Of Attraction truly exists, that if you strongly believe in something to happen to you, the universe would deliver it to you. If so, then will he possibly feel that in other part of his world there’s someone who madly think about him? Someone who would take care of him sincerely, if only he realizes that they perfectly suit together.

I think there is nothing to lose, just to believe the Law Of Attraction.

God, please, if You allow me to even try to be with him, lead me to the ways closer to him. If You don’t think he’s good enough for me, then help me to kill this feeling please?

What is the use of an empty hope?

But I guess that is not a wise way to say a feeling as an empty hope, since there is no such empty hope. I think it is the mysterious bumpy process that makes it all worth to learn in the end, regardless you end up to get what you want or not.

One more time, it’s the lesson learnt that matters.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

what's wrong with DORA-look hair?!

I've got my hair-cut last Sunday. I hadn't planned it before. SO I was just having creambath-treatment when my parents also got foot-massage in that salon and I thought it would be a good idea to have a hair cut.

SO far so good, til the barber cut my long bangs and he kept cutting it over and over again! Hah, and it used to be one-side bangs til he cut it too short so now ...
the bangs I have is the one like Dora The Explorer does.

Actually I felt it was still all OK til I got to campus the next day and the bangs did attract attentions *sigh* Some liked it and some don't, frankly said, most of my friends do not like it.. BUT WHO CARES? Haha!

But there is one thing I hate with this bangs, when it doesn't cover my forehead, it would just look like a piano (the black & white tuts) on my forehead!

Does anyone know if there's any hair extension for bangs only? :-P

Saturday, September 12, 2009

how much does FASTING matter?

I was in a public transportation (angkot) when I heard the driver shouting to another angkot driver, expressing his anger. It was quiet irritating however, for me as the passenger who had enough such hectic day and I must hear this kind of ‘public anger’. That time, I thought to myself, “Isn’t it Ramadhan month,and particularly he’s on the fasting season, right? Isn’t he supposed to handle his anger better?”

Well I am not a Muslim, but I’ve been growing in a surrounding that most of the neighbors are Muslim. All I know about this fasting season is that beside the physical resistance to food during the day, each must take control and hold back his or her most-likely-to-do bad habit. For example, high-tempered people try to deal with their anger-management.

The other day, I was having a dinner with a Muslim friend of mine when I saw him smoking. Then I asked him “Why are you still smoking? Isn’t it still in the fasting season?” He relaxingly answered “But it’s at night right? I am not currently doing the fasting”. That was the point when we started to have a little debate about what to do and what to not do during fasting. I personally think that fasting season should be the best moment to train our patience and positive-attitudes and also to resist from our bad habit, not just from morning to dusk but in every second the whole day.

One day my friend telling me that her laptop was robbed in her house. I was so shocked that time and I asked her “But it’s Ramadhan month right? Aren’t people supposed to be good in order to prepare Lebaran?” And she just gave me simple answer… “Devils never sleep.”

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

The 5th Semester & Tom Cruise Inspiration


It's been 3 weeks since the new semester started. The courses has been more interesting than the previous ones, at least so far. There would be more English classes available and this semester, Unpar is lucky enough to have two foreign professors teaching here: an Australian and an American.I haven't met the latter, but his name is quiet famous among us who just started to question where he was.. Bradley Simpson.

Hukum International
Politik Bisnis Internasional
Teori Hubungan Internasional
US Global Politics
International Relations in Asia Pacific
International Politics
Foreign Policy
NGO and Civil Society

Those are my courses for this semester. I once questioned "Am I capable enough in handling those 8 subjects, with Protocol of PRAKDIP to handle, plus External duties?" (Talking about External, I have got this awesome members to be in the team. I love'em! Haha!)

Yes I was once being doubtful, then I saw the other students take also 24 credits (8 subjects) and I remember what Tom Cruise said that if you only do what you think you can do,you'll never do very much!

OHH... YEAH, I think Mr.Cruise got the point!